listening : 周杰伦 - 枫
suddenly feel emo.
and holy crap i need to wake up early tmr.
scully im the one late tmr then need to forfeit. =__________=
im also lazy to wear until so formal tmr. T.T
suddenly realise i dont really know what im doing.
i feel like letting go,
going on with my own life,
not needing to be bothered about you or anything like that anymore.
but for some stupid reason of urs,
im not allowed to.
i told tingting i didnt want to care,
but deep inside was i?
seriously i dont know myself.
from the start of may onwards i feel i have lost my ownself.
its like the shell is still there,
i still behave the same way, do the same things,
talk the same way.
but its as if something inside me has changed,
or maybe even died.
i dont know.
maybe im really starting to reach the stage of being an idiot acting like that.
and i think marion is right...
for her to be free herself to call me and tell me
"cherlia sth is wrong"
means STH IS REALLY WRONG,
and its dragging farr farrrrrr too long.
am i really going to wait for 1 1/2 years?
am i really that stupid?
